Life is interesting.
It’s unnerving how things work out. I suppose the concept of “what if” is what keeps humans, on a mental level, from making erroneous choices without fully comprehending the situation at hand, but does the dichotomy of yes and no not have a middle ground? Of course, it is obvious that it does, yet, the potential increase in failure due to a synonymous increase in possibilities pulls rational peoples from such decisions, I assume.
But yes, life is interesting.
college is fucking awesome.
I’ve been here almost a week and I have to say, Cornell is fucking awesome. The people are amazing. It’s like … you know those few kids in high school, the ones that were incredibly friendly, hot (or even if not, able to get all the women), and popular, but were also freaking smart and good at everything? It’s like everyone here were those kids. It’s so easy to just talk to anyone (well, virtually everyone) and get along with them, yet if you want, you can have incredibly educated discussions. Definitely blows my mind. I have no clue how I was able to possibly get in here. The diversity is amazing too, though there are like, no Japanese people.
Of course, I’ll definitely be bitching once prelims and finals start coming up but eh, that can’t be helped. My classes right now are kind of meh, but that also really can’t be helped since I’m doing bio and the first two years of bio is all weed-out classes to get rid of people in the major. I think the class I’m enjoying the most right now will be my lit class. It’s about cannibals. CANNIBALS! Timing of it sucks since its so freaking late but still, cannibals!
Other stuff … love my dorm! Despite some of the crap I got for choosing a single, a single is amazing. Total bullshit that you can’t make friends or whatnot cause you won’t have a dormmate to be besties with or whatever cause there are other people that have singles too! And you don’t have to give a shit what you do in your room, don’t have to worry about having dicks as roommates, etc. Food is ehhhh, not bad but you get tired of it really quickly. You just end up trying to diversify as much as possible but I’m sure pretty much every college has this problem so it can’t really be helped.
Anyways I just wanted to say to all you kids still in high school, despite all the crap you have to do in high school and college apps, it’s so fucking worth it!
next step
Thank you to my friends that have always been there to waste time with me and further prevent me from getting any work done ^^. You know who you guys are, and I really wouldn’t be the person I am without you all. Always able to make me laugh (and insane), yet the serious discussions that take place in the most random times has been truly supportive to me as a person. I seemingly am always just simply crazy and happy, so to be able to talk about my doubts, my sadness, and my fears are a testament to the existence you guys hold in my mind. I’m always here if any of you need someone, just as you guys have done for me. I look forward to seeing you kids in the winter!
Leaving for the other coast in 3 hours.
directions
You don’t know which way to go. You don’t know who to ask. You don’t know which way is right. Who, or what should be your compass?
Destinations
You know those times when you have something serious you want to discuss with a friend, but you know it’s too boring or too serious to talk about? Or rather, perhaps you don’t really want to talk about it because deep down inside, you know this is something you have to decide by yourself. But even then, it’s nice to have that person there to be the silent wall that simply listens, and bounces everything back to you, so you can reach that answer.
Life is very fickle and absentminded, but it’s nice knowing your friends will always be there to support your back.
beaches and planes
Went to the beach today with the Japanese crew. That was a blast, had a ton of fun being idiots with kelp and sand and water balloons and screwing around, and then the bbq was a bit of work, but it was quite delicious. Kind of a sleepy drive back, but you guys are a great group ^^
Afterwards, came home, took a final, packed all my stuff for my Japan trip (which I leave for in like 3 or 4 hours), and took another final. I am dead.
Anyhow, off to Japan!
last day of work
Today was the last day of work for me. Though I have a month after coming back from Japan, I figured I’d rather relax and do random stuff instead of work so I decided to end my stay. I will miss the place though, the people were very nice people, when I look back on it, the hours weren’t too bad, and the pay was very good for a student. Perhaps I’ll be a waiter again when I go off to Cornell, there’s a bunch of restaurants nearby too.
Cut my hair today, pretty short for me, but it’s summer and it’s really hot so I think it’s good. Also bought a bunch of stuff for my Japan trip, as well as a rather late night karaoke with Kenta and Sai.
Beach tomorrow, as well as finishing two finals and packing for Japan. We’ll see how this pans out …
tennis
Played tennis for the first time in probably years with Robin today and I was quite atrocious. It’s amazing how much worse you can get at something you could do fairly okay before. But I guess that’s how it is for everything, not running in the off-season always made me super slow in cross country as well. Makes me a little glad that I didn’t slack off that much as a SSS, so I don’t forget how to be dying at school every day for college ^^
Makes me wish I was actually good at a sport though. It has dawned on my that my athletic abilities are quite close to zero, though that’s not exactly something I can complain about since I don’t practice or anything.
sleepover
I hung out with the Japanese crew or rather, the people I always seemingly end up having a sleepover with (this is probably like what, the 20th time? not that it’s a bad thing though) for the past two days. Late meetup at Kenta and Yuta’s house for dinner after buying some funky orange cream soda at Lucky’s. Karaoke afterwards and then slightly potentially reckless driving around before getting a slight scolding by some cops when we visited the giant hill for some night scenery. Donut Wheel run afterwards before heading back. After some more failed attempts by the other kids to torture me, we surprisingly got a few hours of shuteye.
Met up with Michelle in the morning to send her off to the airport and then back to Kenta/Yuta’s house for some Mario Bros on the Wii (which I was quite marvelous at). Super late lunch at Red Robin and then headed home. No work done whatsoever but I’ll get to it eventually maybe. Japan trip scheduling is not planned at all and I need to finish up my classes … tomorrow’s a relaxed day so hopefully I’ll actually do some work (yeah right).
shells
Met up today in the morning with Saumit, Ellen, and Amy (our names become SEAS, just fyi) to make some broccoli cheese pasta shell thing. Overall I think our planning abilities are quite lacking, given that we returned to Safeway twice and we ran out of tomato sauce, had too much broccoli, etc, and our cooking abilities need some work too. But it was quite tasty (and healthy) and fun. We should do it again, perhaps lasagna next time.
Went to my De Anza class afterwards to take the final for it since I won’t be here next week to take it. This was for my Medical Communications class, which, I guess wasn’t exactly what I thought it’d be, but it wasn’t too bad. It was a very laid-back class so that was a nice ending to De Anza classes. Most likely the last one I’ll ever take at De Anza. Just my ones at Foothill left, which I’ll finish this weekend or something. Nice to see everything ending and transitioning to college, though it is slightly frightening at the same time.
Afterwards, came home and ate dinner, and then went to Neal’s house with Kevin for a LAN party. Though we were the only Asians there and it was quite a nerdy activity we participated in, it was pretty fun as well. Not something to do every day, but it was nice to do occasionally.
